Im young. Im only 17. Im fit and adverturous. Then why am I spending my time working my ass off? I feel like I havnt seen any of my friends In weeks (Its been 8 Days). I havnt been in comntact with my boyfriend because we are both working what feels like everyday. Im still a kid. I need to play, right? There is one month and a week or so left of summer and I have only been to the beach once with friends. How sad is that. I dont know about you but I feel like there is a pit in my heart. Its summer, i should be out and about with my friends on the beach and at the river. Staying out late on warm nights and just hanging out. I will have worked 6 days in a row on monday. The week before that I worked 5 days. This is my summer between grade 11 and 12. Im supossed to be partying and having the best time of my life, but instead im stuck working all the time. Its not that I have a bad job or anything. Infact I have an amazing job. But if you have ever been homesick, thats what I feel like, but Im friend-sick.
Sometimes I wish there was a real place called never-never-land. I dont whant to grow up. There are too many responsabilities that people push on you to do. After school you have to go to school again to get an education (what the hell do you think I have been doing for the past 12 years of my life?) or you will never have a decent job, with a decent pay that will support a family. You must learn how to do all of the things you dont know how to do in a very short amount of time. Not all of us can keep up with the information that is being regurgitated out of the mouths of teachers, elders, moms, and dads. Their verbal diareah of knowledge is a good thing but I cant hold it all in. I learn something new, I remember it. I learn something else new, I make room for it by forgetting the first thing I remembered! what to do.
I feel like I have no friends at this point. I havnt heard from them or seen them in ages. My pho ne ran out of mins and the unlimited texting ran out so I can't even call them. And so you say, "why dont you use a landline?" well I could but Im working during the day and Im usually eating and sleeping in the evining. Oh dear. I think I complain too much. but im only 17. Actually im not even 17 yet Im still 16 until July 27th! Im still a kid, Im still growing. Then why dont I get any of my own play time?
Sometimes I wish there was a real place called never-never-land. I dont whant to grow up. There are too many responsabilities that people push on you to do. After school you have to go to school again to get an education (what the hell do you think I have been doing for the past 12 years of my life?) or you will never have a decent job, with a decent pay that will support a family. You must learn how to do all of the things you dont know how to do in a very short amount of time. Not all of us can keep up with the information that is being regurgitated out of the mouths of teachers, elders, moms, and dads. Their verbal diareah of knowledge is a good thing but I cant hold it all in. I learn something new, I remember it. I learn something else new, I make room for it by forgetting the first thing I remembered! what to do.
I feel like I have no friends at this point. I havnt heard from them or seen them in ages. My pho ne ran out of mins and the unlimited texting ran out so I can't even call them. And so you say, "why dont you use a landline?" well I could but Im working during the day and Im usually eating and sleeping in the evining. Oh dear. I think I complain too much. but im only 17. Actually im not even 17 yet Im still 16 until July 27th! Im still a kid, Im still growing. Then why dont I get any of my own play time?
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