Cameron Lake

FOR REASONS THAT will not BE EXPLAINED

have you been through a rough patch in your life. Well i am at the moment.

Recently I have broken up with my almost 1 year boyfriend. Yes I was. Still am devistated. I dont think I will ever be able to get over him fully. Thats the thing about your first love, right. Well anyway I dont want to say the real reasons why we broke up but it was mutuall, and part of the reason was lack of communication. This is only the start of my promlems. There is no way to say this lightly so Ill just say it. My parents, a doctor, and I think that i am depressed. like really, its my last year at high school and I have to be depressed. I havnt really told any of my friends or my ex so i thought that telling a bunch of random people that I dont know will help start the realization and maybe some acceptance.

Also to top it off im failing a couple of my classes. Thats Just perfect.
okay im sorry but im gong to have to stop there while my mind is still posative.
bye again

FOR REASONS THAT cant BE EXPLAINED

You live in a town for your entire life. you go to the elementery, middle, and high school in that town. The relation ship that the community has with the schools, stores, home care facilities, and just the people is a great, strong relationship. so who whould want to break that up right.

WELL, recently the school board of the district that I go to had decided to close 1 of the 2 high schools that are in our disterict. HOW BLOODY STUPID CAN THEY BE. Of corse the townspeople, students, teachers, parents, and even the mayor of our town protested at an open meeting to "get feedback on their ideas". The think is that their facts are all wrong. There are 8 elementry schools, 4 middleschools, and only 2 highschools. The reason they wantto close my school (KSS) is because the number of enrollment of sctudents going into high school is declining. Now, noneone but the schoolboard knew about all of this. They hid it behind their backs. The mayor of our town didnt even know about this until the morning of the meeting. THE MAYOR. Also when he wanted to talk and share what he wanted to say, the people running the meeting were not going to let him talk. How rude is that. to let the mayor know 3 or 4 hours before this meeting that they want to close down his highschool and not let him have a say in the desision.

Now I dont know all the facts because I was unable to go to the meeting but my dad did. when he got back he has a good amount of info that they whent over at the meeting. The three main reasons that they want to close KSS is because 1.they can save money 2.the school needs upgrades 3. well I dont remember so im just going to blame it on their stupidity.

When I find out more facts Ill post something.
bye for now

THINK ABOUT IT

So im reading the book "Eat, Pray, Love" and there are so many great quotes in it. They are things that make you stop and think. So Im going to let you read them, think it over , and tell me what your oppinion is. Also my phychology teacher gave us a sheet with "words to live by", and some of them are very intersting.


"A true Soal mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everthing that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soal mate is probably the most imprtant person you will ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. but to live with your soal mate forever? Nah. it would be too painful."
-Elizabeth Gilbert

"If Faith were rational, it would be by definition -Faith. Faith is belif in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face first and full speed into the dark."
-Elizabeth Gilbert

"Always tell the truht. That way you don't have to remember what you said"

"Speak the truth, even thought it might create conflict or tension"

"Thoes who think it is permissible to tell white lies soon grow color-blind"

"It takes 20 years to build a reputation and 5 minuits to ruin it."

"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough"

"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth"

"If you want to be respected by others the great thing is to respect yourself . Only by that, only by that, only by self-respect will you compel others to respect you"

Original Photography by Devon Close

For just over a year now my dad and I have been adding and subtracting different things out of our 55gallon salt water tank. The fish, corals, and other plant life in it has extensivly grown over the year. It is now fully bloming with all kinds of different creatures. If you dont know I am an inpiering photographer and hope that one day I can become a Underwater Photographer. I have spent hours apon endless hours standing in front of the tank taking hundreds of pictures of the life that lives in it. I see something different every time I look in it. These are just a few samples of my fish tank photos.

PS. the photo above (coral, pulsing xenia) I entered to national Geographic to be published in a book. Suprisingly It got accepted. But unfortunatly I had to be a US citizen to get it published in the book; which I deffinatly am not. So I lucked out

my photographer dreams are complete

I have wanted this for a long time. Im always looking for it on line to order. But today was my lucky day. I found one. No shipping fees. just under $20. I love my Polaroid camera! I just bought it today for $18 at a local Antique store in the town were I live. How amazing is that. I look for one from around the world and one just happenes to be in my own town. I love it I love it I love it!! just had to tell you. all though I know that polaroid has stopped printing the paper for the cameras, which is totally unfair. If anyone knows were i can get some Polaroid SX-70 film PLEASE LET ME KNOW!

xo

A TRIP TO REMEMBER

I dont know if you have ever head of one, but recently I have gone on a Hero Holiday. the Hero Holiday that I whent on is a 10 day long trip to Mexico. There you get to know other canadian kids, have the best time of your life and change a families life forever by building a house for them. Along the way you will be asking yourself questions that you never knew the answer to until now. When people ask me about it, how it was, there is really no words to describe what it was like. Its different for everyone, but also it more of an emotional experience that even the most poetic people cannot describe in words. when people do ask me about it I usually start by saying "IT WAS AWESOME" but you know it was more than awsome so then I say "It was the best experiance of my life". I guess one way to describr it would be to say that every emotion or slight feeling that you have ever felt before in your life is rapped up into 10 beautiful days.

My hero holiday started for me with a friend. She had previously been on a hero holiday the summer before and had convinced me that what ever decision I made I would not regret it. So being the adventurous person that I am I decided to join on (for what I didnt know at the time) for the best trip of my life. So with a few other friends, we drove our way from Vancouver Island over to Bellingham. From there we Flew to San Diago. In San Diago we were greeted by a big tan guy and a Kewi! I of corse had no idea who they were but my friend did. She opened her arms to them and from that point on I knew I could trust these guys. So time goes on, we meet the rest of the group, get to know each other. The next day We are on the road to Vicente Guerrero, Mexico.


Apon arrival at the house we were asigned to our rooms and told t obe back for dinner and a debreifing. Being new at the hole thing I played along. The next morning we were loading the bus, my camera at the ready, my mind open to possabilities; but I dont thing my mind was really ready for what the next few days would bring me. With some man power we managed to build a house in 4 days. can you emagin that. 4 days out of your life to build a house for a family in need. The single mom that I built for had 6 boys and previously lived in a house no bigger than my dads truck. It was made out of tarps and held together by tree branches and string. Now at this very moment they are living in a 400 square Ft house equipt with food beds a clean kitchen and 4 strong walls and a sturdy roof over their heads. On that dedication day just to see the family so greatful to have such a simple thing, there is something that triggeres a realization in our hearts, mind, and souls.


Dedication day Is the one day on the trip that everyone dreads and hopes simultainousley. Its the day you hand over the keys to the family and give over the house to them. But its also the day you have to say goodbye. Saying goodbye really is the hardest part. But Ill be back soon.
If you have liked what you have read you can get more info about Hero Holiday at www.absolute.ca. Absolute is a canadian organization that organized and runs more that just Hero Holidays. There are 4 main sights that Hero Holiday works at, they are stationed in Mexico, Dominican R., Thailand, and recently Haiti. Please have a look or sign up for a Hero Holiday.

SUMMER CHILD

Im young. Im only 17. Im fit and adverturous. Then why am I spending my time working my ass off? I feel like I havnt seen any of my friends In weeks (Its been 8 Days). I havnt been in comntact with my boyfriend because we are both working what feels like everyday. Im still a kid. I need to play, right? There is one month and a week or so left of summer and I have only been to the beach once with friends. How sad is that. I dont know about you but I feel like there is a pit in my heart. Its summer, i should be out and about with my friends on the beach and at the river. Staying out late on warm nights and just hanging out. I will have worked 6 days in a row on monday. The week before that I worked 5 days. This is my summer between grade 11 and 12. Im supossed to be partying and having the best time of my life, but instead im stuck working all the time. Its not that I have a bad job or anything. Infact I have an amazing job. But if you have ever been homesick, thats what I feel like, but Im friend-sick.
Sometimes I wish there was a real place called never-never-land. I dont whant to grow up. There are too many responsabilities that people push on you to do. After school you have to go to school again to get an education (what the hell do you think I have been doing for the past 12 years of my life?) or you will never have a decent job, with a decent pay that will support a family. You must learn how to do all of the things you dont know how to do in a very short amount of time. Not all of us can keep up with the information that is being regurgitated out of the mouths of teachers, elders, moms, and dads. Their verbal diareah of knowledge is a good thing but I cant hold it all in. I learn something new, I remember it. I learn something else new, I make room for it by forgetting the first thing I remembered! what to do.
I feel like I have no friends at this point. I havnt heard from them or seen them in ages. My pho ne ran out of mins and the unlimited texting ran out so I can't even call them. And so you say, "why dont you use a landline?" well I could but Im working during the day and Im usually eating and sleeping in the evining. Oh dear. I think I complain too much. but im only 17. Actually im not even 17 yet Im still 16 until July 27th! Im still a kid, Im still growing. Then why dont I get any of my own play time?

The travel itch

Next year I graduate. Its my time to have "Freedom". My best friend; Cara, and I have always wanted to travel after we finish school. Although surching the internet for RTW tickets is harder than it sounds. Iv tryed LOTS of different sites but they all seem to be UK websites. That isnt much help for me, living in British Columbia. We were thinking that we would start in Europe and travel all around there. Fron there we want to travel down to a few places in Africa. Later we would like to travel into Asia, down to Australia and then to New Zealand. Then we would fly back over the pacific ocean back home. I know it sounds like a lot to cover; and it is, but we both really want to go travel the world. and when we say world, we dont mean just a couple locations in the world, we mean all around the world! One thing I would really like to do while traveling is to see the 7 natural, and ancient wonders of the world. well good luck to me later in life. Iv got a lot of traveling to do! Traveling is not easy. You think that you can just pack your things and catcha plain, its not that easy. You have to plan everything. were you are going to sleep, eat, shots, what attractions you want to see, activities you want to do, plan and manage yor money. Its hard work. But I think if you can manage all of that before you even leave home you are going to have a great time traveling. But there is nothing that can pepare you for culture shock. Traveling in strange places were you do not know how to read, write, or speek their language. You are a stranger in their territory. They are the locals and you are the freak tourists. Now I think that is the hardest thing to do when traveling, communication. Being a student I think that traveling is the greatest thing that you could ever do. I am a student and after 12 years of school do not want to go to school for another 4 years. Thats 16 years of school and learning. Thats just too much, you need to have a break and experience the real world. Not what is just in the small town outside the school classroom window. There is so much more to life that just school and grades. well I think Ill leave this right there. If your going traveling and you are reading this, do everything you can to have the greatest time of your life. Experience different cultures, eat strange food, make some friends! Experience life.

Distant Attraction.

Its been a long time since I have blogged. so im starting over. Iv suddenly refrashed and rambunctiously started over. So I thought that I would just blog the ordanary thing s that i do in my daily life. Starting with THE most delicious summer drink. Now im Warning you. I love food. and not just like a normal person likes food, I love food. It probably has something to do with my dad being a chef. I grew up around the hot swetty kitchens and all the amazing smells. Along with the occational free cookie! I wouldnt say that I love food so much that its all I do, or that Im overweight, but its about one of the only things that is constantly on my mind through out the day. So enjoy.

ICED ORANGE GREEN TEA LATTE

makes 2 servings

2 cups (500ml) milk
3 green tea bags
2x 1cm pieces, peeled fresh ginger
1 tbsp (15ml) frozen orange juice concentrate
1/2 (2ml) tsp vanilla
to taste liquid honey

In a small saucepan, combine milk, tea bags, and ginger.
Heat over medium heat for about 10 min, until steaming,
stir occasionally. Take care that the milk does not boil.
Remove from the heat and discard the tea bags. Coolto room
temperature, then remove the ginger. Stir in orange concentrate
and vanilla. Add honey to tast. Chill well, at least 1-2 hours. Whirl
in blender until frothy. Pour over ice and enjoy.

THE TOP 50 BOOKS TO READ

1. The canadian encyclopedia (McClelland and stewart)
2. Encyclopedia Britannica
3. Bible
4. The complete works of Shakespeare
5. The oxford english dictionary
6. The adventures of huckleberry finn - Mark Twain
7. Pride and prejudice -Jane Austen
8. the canadian who's who
9. the dictionary of canada Biogrophy
10. Great Expectations -Charles Dickens
11. Oxford book of english verse
12. The Face of Battle -John Keegan
13. The Illiad and The Odyssey -Homer
14. Ulysses -James Joyce
15. Dictionary of the English language -Dr.Samual Johnson
16. For Whom the Bell tolls -Ernest Hemingway
17. The Divine Comedy -Dante
18. Faust -Goethe
19. Magic mountain and Dr.Fautus -Thomas Mann
20. The watch that ends the night -Hugh MacLennan
21. Beloved -Toni Morrison
22. The new Science -Galileo
23. Methaphysics asa guid to morals -Iris Murdoch
24. Dreams of a final Theory -Steven Weinberge
25. The discoverers -Daniel Boorstin
26. None is too many -Irving Abella and Harold Troper
27. Rememberance of things past -Proust
28. Thudwick the big-hearted moose -Dr.Seuss
29. Alice and Wonderland -Lewis Carroll
30. Maurice Duplessis -Conrad Black
31. Complete works of T.S Eliot
32. War and Peace -Tolstoy
33. History of the Russian Revolution -Leon Trotskey
34. Sunshine sketches of a little town -Stephen Leacock
35. Goodbye to all that -Robert Graves
36. P.G Wodenhouse (in total he has 96 books)
37. Most of marshall McLuhan
38. Midnights Children -Salman Rushdie
39. The Diary of Ann Frank
40. Sister outsider -Audrey Loude
41. Complete works of W.H Auden
42. The sherlock Holmes Mysteries -Arther Doyle
43. The shipping news -E. Annni Droulx
44. The Handmaids tale -Margaret artwood
45. The Unconsoed -Kazuo Ishiguro
46. Emily Post's Etiquette

47. A deal undone: The making and breaking of the Meech Lake accord -Andrew Collen

48. The National Geographic World Atlas
49. A biographical Pictionary of fils -David Thomson

50. Spirit of the land: Sacred Places In Native North America -Courtney Milne